Like I guess the number one thing I’m afraid of is that I’m faking all my problems.
Like, what if I’m not depressed or anxious or suicidal, what if I’m just a horrible person?
There’s no reason I would fake, and it sure FEELS real, but if I’m faking then I don’t have to give myself a small break for having real mental issues, I can unload all my self-loathing.
And if I was faking that means all I have to do to feel better is stop.
Just gotta stop being a fuck-up.