I find myself spending a lot of time wondering what’s wrong with me.
Not physically, but mentally.
Every time I hear someone say they don’t like something I like, or vice versa, I assume there’s something wrong with me.
I don’t know why. I think I’m just constantly scared that if I confess to liking something unpopular, people will yell at me and hate me and think bad of me. And in the end, the opinions of others mean a lot to me. Being hated is probably my biggest fear.
And the funny thing is, I see enough examples of people getting hate for opinions that I know this isn’t even that irrational a fear.
This isn’t even something new. I was just thinking about all the years I’ve spent keeping quiet about things I like because my friends scorned it.