…wow. I, uh.
I never expected to see a message like this.
I’ve been staring at it for… god, a good five minutes now. I’m having a lot of feelings, and I’m not really sure what to say.
I guess I should say that in truth, I really DO want to come back. I loved OPRP with all my heart, and I spent years on there. Even now, I sort of count the people there as my friends. I want to return, god, I really want to.
But frankly, I am still too much of a coward. I’m scared, literally scared of some of the people there.
In the end, I left feeling harassed for being a woman. For dating Speak. For being there, and visible. I was afraid to be there, because I wasn’t sure what would happen. I was called a slut. My characters were called sluts. Someone threatened to rape my character. I don’t know if anyone even cares that they happened.
So… I guess I really… still want to give it a try. Who knows, maybe I’ll pop in today. Look around. Say hi. I miss everyone really badly.
But the first moment I feel unsafe, I’m leaving.
…thanks, anon. The… thought that someone might have been missing me… sort of… feels good, hehe.